Grief. A word that many people want to skip over. We don't want to admit the sting it has on our souls. We want to skip over it and move forward without facing it. I get it. I did this for over a decade. I experienced pregnancy loss for the first time in my early 20s. I was young, unmarried and SO LOST!
There are many faces that grief can take on. There is anger, guilt, sadness, loneliness, shame, fear, bitterness, depression, physical pain, inability to focus, eating too much, eating too little, sleeping to much or insomnia. With pregnancy or infertility grief, I would even say we go through this painful and unique yearning. We yearn for our baby we lost.
The faces of grief can seem so ugly. We want to run away from them. BUT, what IF, what if the faces of grief can be beauty? What if God wants to turn our pain around into a purpose, into a hope? What if you have the power to choose what face of grief looks like on your journey of healing? The thing is, that we do. We have the power within ourselves to choose beauty or ashes, hope or hopelessness, joy or sadness. Trust me, I know this sounds SO hard. I have been there. BUT when I finally got to a point where I could understand this truth, I was set free. Sure, my heart still ached for the babies I have lost (I'm guessing my heart always will), BUT I CHOSE that pain to have purpose. I chose for that pain to be turned into love and a closer relationship with Him.
I chose to allow God to turn the faces of grief I was experiencing to faces of love, grace, joy, acceptance, mercy, courage, hope, healing and health. We need him to experience a different kind of grief, one that is not of the world.
What faces of grief are you experiencing today? Let go and let God love you through!